It has now been two years since my husband took these pictures. He hated sunflowers and I loved them; they were my favorite. One day on his way home from work he made it a point to stop at this sunflower field and take these beautiful pictures for me.
When he sent me these pictures I thought nothing of it. I did not find anything special about this gesture. We were not even getting along. I was headed to a lawyer to file for separation. I had no idea what was going to happen in a very short time. Two weeks later these pictures had a whole new meaning. Two weeks later my husband took his life in our bathroom. That day changed my life forever.
I was referred to an organization that helps suicide loss survivors. Their logo is a sunflower because sunflowers draw energy from each other. I recalled these pictures and at that moment, I knew God sent them for a reason! Why would my husband stop to take these beautiful pictures when he hated sunflowers?
Sunflowers became the way God spoke to me letting me know that everything was going to be okay and that God was in this storm. Two years later God has carried me out of the storm. My husband's death brought me face to face with hell, but God never left me and he showed himself stronger and brighter in my life than I had ever known. What the enemy meant for evil, God turned for good!
"And the God of all grace, who called you into his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you, and make you strong, firm and steadfast " 1 Peter 5:10
God has restored and is still restoring everything that I have lost. He gave me a brand new life, and just as Christ suffered so shall I, so that I will be raised into eternal glory just as my beautiful Savior has!
The light never went out. It may have dimmed for a minute, but my God was always there!